seriously feel lonely at the moment.....i haven't spoken with anyone including joseph for 3 months or so. i feel like crap that i didn't catch nelle when she was here. actually the only person i've been in constant contact with is sonia and her bf mikael. they're at noosa so it's good having someone to talk about real shit with.

i saw paul yesterday and he's doing ok. he's back at school and apparenntly he's staying with yves . about jospeh that's really sad...honestly!

about ian i haven't seen him anywhere at all....i don't even know where he's staying. I've seen him once or twice in alexander's car but that was it.

kayla's starting to talk a little, but she seems to mumble her words.....i'm starting to worry if it's because of the countless times she's fallen off the bed or hit her head so hard...Tye is big boy now...he's doing great.

going swimming tomorrow morning!! woo hoo!! anyways,yeah im pretty sure ive got you know what- what we were talking abot lastnight... i got the symptons.. pretty embarasssing please dont tell anyonehahha.. well ive booked an appointment for monday & that gives me an excuse tonot go to school that day and i want mum to be there but i dont really know if ishould tell her.. but hey... so yerr.. going to see sonny bill williamstomorrow... nicoles siste ris looking after them so hopefully we'll be able tomeet them or see them or somethng! im bringing my camera.. anyways, cant wait tosee mum.. im eating so much its going otua control. im putting on weight iswear. k, enough about food and i must retire and get some neauty sleep.

i was on the way to the beach house to pick up spare luggage. on the way back, passed that crazy bridge and further down near where the farm is and where the road nearly hits good road, i swerved to miss a cow. the truck spun backwards and then flipped twice. the driver's side window is smashed and the roof on the driver's side is caved in. i woke up and the car was upside down. the music was blaring, the car was making so much noise. i switched off the car, couldn't get out as my side was fucked and completley crushed and could barely move. i was bleeding. honestly, when the car flipped, i honeslty thought 'shit, this is it, i am going to die. i am honestly oging to die' and when i woke up i was waiting for the pain, but it didn't come. i just kickd the passenger side open and walked out and her man drove by and helped me out, then my dad's friends all came. i had over 10 cars come to check on me and help me out. the news has spread so fast. i went to town today for a check up and everyone knows. everyone. i have neck spasms and whip lash on my back and neck, bruises on my legs, my ankle is swollen. i am so grateful to be alive. i am so glad you guys weren't there. nobody can believe that i survived. i am not exagerrating. i honestly don't know how i managed to get away with nothing. i keep getting panic attacks and thinking you guys could ahve died. just imagine that. some of the people who checked on me started crying coz they were in so much shock. fuck i cant even think. i am just so argh. so lucky. and so in troullbe

anyways, ross was on our flight. he was so shattered. he and all the pilotboys all went out. he headbutted andrew coz he said he hooked up with toni. thisis the goss i know btw. ross said that he went to jims once and jessinta was sitting him (in the missionary positions were his words) and he asked why she was being quiet and she said coz chrissy was in the room.. jim lied to jessinta..but like shed still go to him (obviosuy) even though hes picked someone overher..apparently shes moving there next month. and chrissy said she missed jim today.. he rang her at 3 this morning.. dude he soooo likes her. hahaha. he sentehr a message the other day saying that he knew he shouldnt be but he wasmissing her... awe... hahhaa.. so yeah.. thats my goss.

Ok i had a friend out this week so her elaine and me went out in noosa on friday night. It was fun there were heaps of people out. Shes cool. she not you but still cool. She will be fun to go out with but she keeps asking about the cowboys. Like where are the cowboys and im like i dont know i dont care. She thinks nathans hot. And antony not. Um jezza came up to me and gave me a half hug thing (wierd hes never done that before) and asked me where you were. and i told him you were gone (like he didnt know already) and he just sort of said oh and walked off. Then later at the good old bekery he was yelling at his sister and she was crying and they were like fighting right in front of me not kidding so i was gettigna bit worried that he was gonna bash someone cause he was so fired up. But moving on next person. voldermort didnt say anything to me but kept looking at me and showing off in front of me wierd but cant say much else about him i wasnt really paying attention to him. Ummm stewart was nice i lost my phone at the club and he came back and helpeed me look for it but no no happenings there. Will was really drunk and i hate him whens he drunk. Umm who else Tully was just tully fucking funny except really touchy feely but dont worry i have no attraction in that way to him. And thats about it. Ellaine is big on pokies. She smokes so i had like 3 on the weekend. Holy crap i vomitted at the club toilets on friday soooooo drunk but you couldnt really tell i was that drunk cause after my throw up i was fine. And then me and my friend went to emerald on saturday night so i have no noosa stories from that night.

Ok i had a friend out this week so her elaine and me went out in noosa on friday night. It was fun there were heaps of people out. Shes cool. she not you but still cool. She will be fun to go out with but she keeps asking about the cowboys. Like where are the cowboys and im like i dont know i dont care. She thinks nathans hot. And antony not. Um jezza came up to me and gave me a half hug thing (wierd hes never done that before) and asked me where you were. and i told him you were gone (like he didnt know already) and he just sort of said oh and walked off. Then later at the good old bekery he was yelling at his sister and she was crying and they were like fighting right in front of me not kidding so i was gettigna bit worried that he was gonna bash someone cause he was so fired up. But moving on next person. voldermort didnt say anything to me but kept looking at me and showing off in front of me wierd but cant say much else about him i wasnt really paying attention to him. Ummm stewart was nice i lost my phone at the club and he came back and helpeed me look for it but no no happenings there. Will was really drunk and i hate him whens he drunk. Umm who else Tully was just tully fucking funny except really touchy feely but dont worry i have no attraction in that way to him. And thats about it. Ellaine is big on pokies. She smokes so i had like 3 on the weekend. Holy crap i vomitted at the club toilets on friday soooooo drunk but you couldnt really tell i was that drunk cause after my throw up i was fine. And then me and my friend went to emerald on saturday night so i have no longreach stories from that night.